my past came knocking
with a ridiculous joke
oh, God
if You're laughing with me
i should be laughing too
God, why are you taunting me?
God, are you mocking me?
Rumi says, "Don't grieve.
Anything you lose comes round
In another form."
i wish i knew what that form could be.
that's the maddening part for me.
oh, God
if You're laughing with me
i should be laughing too
if in every test there's a gift
i can't wait to unwrap this
what on earth could it be?
don't keep it veiled to me
until then it's let go and love
let go and love
let go...and love
nothing else to do
but let go and love
oh God, if You're laughing with me
let me laugh with You
desire is a fire
desire is a fire
let me sink in that deep healing sleep
oh come, my Beloved, and hold me